My Broken Hallelujah..

Prayer, sacrificial love, waiting on the Lord,  the beauty of being alone with God, confession, cultivating a spirit of surrender: all these spiritual disciplines I see God refining in me. I’m so grateful that as my relationship with Christ grows, He reveals new and even old treasures to awaken my soul. Even when I’m in my moments of stagnancy, He continues to teach, mold, and encourage me. I see these life lessons manifest itself even more through the life of my dear sister who is going through so much opposition and captivity now. She has been in the crux of my prayers and part of my being. She is one of the miracles of deliverance that I’m waiting for God to bring to pass. She is one of the reasons why I am waiting patiently on the Lord. She is one of the reasons why I am being still before His presence. This trial between my sister and me is what has been shaping us. Most of my dark valleys, my walks through the fiery furnace, my passing through the rivers have been shaped through my moments with my sister. Through perseverance of this, I honestly have to thank my sister for making me into the woman I am today even though I wish she wouldn’t have chose the route she did. If God were to allow me to choose a trial to strengthen my character I wouldn’t want this. But God’s ways are not my ways. There is purpose through everything and with what God allows, whether bad or good, he always turns it to bring Himself glory and strengthen up His people. I even see the work Christ is doing in my sister’s life. Despite my sister’s brokenness, I see through her perseverance in this that she is a fighter. Through her poor choices, she still has a fighting mentality. For my sister to go through what she has and see what she has seen and still manage to look up with a smile and say, “I love you” I know Christ is not done with her yet. Its only a matter of time until I see deliverance. Until then, I continue to offer up my broken praises unto Him. Although I still wrestle from time to time with these circumstances, I still catch glimpses of hope and see the maturity and redemptive power that He is displaying within me and my family.  I see the growth in my faith and my awareness for my Savior more and for that I’m forever grateful.

Ronske

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